i have learnt to accept and move on. this part of the learning journey was soo steep and soo long. soooo, it took me a long time to get used to and eventually over it.
its like making your way through a dense jungle, slashing your way through the shrubs and whatnot before finally reaching your destination. its like wandering aimlessly and hopelessly through a pitched-black cave, encountering mystical beasts and much more before finally seeing light. its like cracking your head so hard, seeking help from numerous sources before finally, after a superduper long time tho, solve the question. yea, something like that.
also, i have learnt that everyone is ugly in a way. literally, or not (hah! im not so superficial). so the world is not so sad afterall. sooo, beautiful people are only beautiful because they've managed to direct attention to their beautiful parts. ugly people remain ugly because they failed to do so. soooo, if beauty=white & ugliness=black then beautiful people are akin to a white bug with black spots and vice versa for ugly people.
fret not you ugly people for different people have different definitions for beauty. sooo, theres always someone who thinks nicely/highly of you although the numbers might be insignificant compared to a celebrity or a (i dunno? pastor? priest? whatever uh) but hey, one is better than none right?
then again, i spose its only true if we see beauty as a whole package- not just hot&sexy or compassionate&caring (although i admit the former holds a greater weightage) but both. if we were to compartmentalize beauty into different aspects and come up with something, then we're in for a difficult permutations question if you get what i mean. not impossible, but not worth my time thinking about it.
sad to say, after all that im still not sleepy. maybe i should work harder during the day or something. ahh then again why am i typing all this in? will i ever look back upon this some day.. say 10 years down the road when im all old and wrinkled. hahaha! well, maybe if i keep blogging and wondering, the next time i blog/wonder might just be the moment im talking about: 10 years down the road. (yeah, old and wrinkled.. maybe even bald. hopefully white though haha wtf!) then i can conveniently go to archives and slowly read through all my moments/posts. well, another possibility is that just like many other bloggers, we fade away and eventually die. we get cremated and our blog become extinct in the blogosphere. ahh, its all full of ifs and maybes. i should just shut up and enjoy my time.
okay before i get carried away and come up with a more incoherent post, i should get away from here. wait, note to the future fauzan who might come back to read this: whats relevent is mainly the top most part, the rest are just you getting carried away as usual. hahaha, this can make it into a heroes scene man when i actually think abt it. like future fauzan coming back to see this particular post to understand the hidden meaning and save the world! HAHAHA, no ive not been watching heroes, im just digressing and being super irrelevent. ok ciao chin chow!
do you know that the word OK is actually a person if you view it sideways? well, it does sound like something one would already know in primary school. just like the ICUCICU=fuckyou and manymany more. ohwell at least now i do know.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
whats so special about being one in a million. afterall, theres 4 of that kind in singapore, approaching 5. in the world, theres about 6000 of you?
today i learnt 2 things. first i have to be more wary cause the population of cats in my estate grew exponentially. second, paranomal activity can be summarised into a minute video clip. just go to youtube to catch the final, 'scary' part of it. the rest is just hollywood sucking every dollar of your money.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
ahh the use of technology and visual stimulation at its best.
anyway, sidetrack abit.. (physics) theory of the absorption line spectrum is that when photons are radiated, it radiates
haphazardly hence dark lines seen. if it just radiates in a particular line or direction, bright line would be observed. its
just like us, if we stick conform to societal norms or stick to the right path- LIKE STUDYING, we should end up bright (or
at least doing alright). but the innate curiosity of mankind leads to us deviating away from our path.
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well just like some academic facts are not well appreciated by us (when we have to memorise but seem to not be able to
do so), our parents do face the same trouble/problem about us. so perhaps when we do curse notes or scientists for the
facts we learn (albeit super irrelevant), im sure our parents will have their fair share of curses(complaints sounds better)
about us.
nah, all this came to my mind from the visually stimulating head massage. maybe some dendrites in my brains got stimulated,
i dont know?
Friday, November 20, 2009
hahah my mom went all emo on me cause of facebook today.
social interview asked me what i will do when my mom adopts anders aplin?
i answered: kill myself.
then suren had to comment, hence my reply was that im too good for her.
obviously i was kidding. but no, shes sensitive. girls are sensitive. women are sensitive. haha. well maybe men are just insensitive huh. who cares anw. shes my mom. shes going to live with me forever. what a life!
ahh alevels are ending, time to get fit againn.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
it was a tragedy. a catastrophe to say the least. what a sad way to part.
its miserable how this affair ended. well at least im only half done with you. i shall meet you again. come the second leg, id ripp you apart. then, we can get off to a new start.
for now, i shall face off with an old foe first.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
there are only two types of people: show offs and posers. the former loves themselves too much. the latter hates themselves too much.
yes im a 'half-empty' person nowadays. actually its just a 'half-empty' moment now.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
if youre spoilt for choices at the cinemas, look no further than MY GIRLFRIEND IS A SECRET AGENT! recommended for those who just wanna sit back and have a good laugh!
yes after this week, what i can do is to pray that the moderators are NOT EVIL. i dont even expect them to be nice, just DONT BE EVIL!
to perform to one's expectations is already hard enough. please dont make it harder.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
alevels has been an eyeopener; intriguing, exasperating and uncanny.
im at a loss for words, i should just pack up and sleep.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
to me, living our lives is the same as doing an assessment book or a test. we get the answers right, or not? (the can be bothered) or we give up and wait till the end (the cant be bothered). well.. thats cause the end is where the answer sheet is and thats where we obtain the answers right?
well, point is, theres so many questions being posed throughout our lives. as we attempt the questions one by one, just like we do in a test, we might leave it with doubts and uncertainties. as more questions pass by, we skip through the pages. in real time, its likened to the years passing by.
at the end of the test or the book, we obtain answers. normally the general reaction to acknowledge the answers would be 'ahhhhhhhhhhhh! (should have known that)' or 'omg, didnt think of that!!' ive always wanted to experience death, get some answers and then come back. (peeping into the answer sheet and continue with the rest) other times, i just want certainty in the answers that i gave hence wanting to check. but as we all know by now, thats not how life works.
so, if god, at the end of the pages to our 'book of lives' were to dissolve all doubts and uncertainties, how will it be? for one, we cannot restart time and live it all over (or we could should a solution be provided to the mysterious ways of time travel) ah, we just wouldnt know, would we?
for now, in hopes of staying on the right track on the path of knowledge, we can just cross refer with others. others who are bothered, intrigued and determined to find out about things that the rest couldnt care less about. well, to put it simply: we're just working through our assessment books with the answer sheet taken away from us. just like how my mom used to do that to me!
now, i just have to choose to be amongst the bothered, or not.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
if pimples have an affinity to face value, mine would yield a very very very exothermic value. to take a very superficial stance, this world is unfair. theres inequity. someone has to intervene so as to ensure society is happy.
yes, we live in a world where society is overly obsessed with beauty. also, where living in sin is the new thing, as agreed upon by britney.
